As Long as I'm Living, My Baby You'll Be

as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be - life as we know it - grace and serendipity_0083 A bit of personal for the blog today.

This past year I became a mama to a beautiful little girl, and today is our (yes, OUR!) birthdays.  As I'm thinking about all of the things I need to do tomorrow for your birthday party this upcoming Saturday, my mind keeps traveling back to where we were a year ago today.  

We had just been admitted to the hospital, and in just a few short hours, we would get to meet you and have our lives forever changed.

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As I'm writing this now, it is currently 1:00 in the morning.  You are snuggled against me curled into a little ball, sucking your thumb like it's going out of style, and we are rocking away in the rocking chair, as three new little teeth work their way past your sore little gums, causing you a lot of sleeplessness and to want a lot of love from mama.  But I don't mind.  I don't mind one bit.  So, instead of thinking about your party where we will celebrate the last year, it's time to take a little look back and enjoy this moment .....

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Dear Adelynne Marie,

A year ago today, you were just a teeny little 6 pound and 3 ounce human. Now, you are full of life, you fill any room with happiness, smiles, laughter, and love, and make me so proud to get to call you mine. You're *almost* walking, *almost* talking, and *almost* have 8 little teeth you show off when you smile. You have changed my life in so many ways. You have taught me patience, how to live on no sleep, and to enjoy the little things.

Even though you are still my tiny little human, you have made me want to be a better person so that you have a fabulous mama to be inspired by who reminds you that anything is possible if you can dream it.  I have bigger dreams because of you, want more out of life because of you, want to try new things because of you.  I cherish every day we have together, even the ones filled with tears and teething pain.

I love your smile, your tiny toes that curl under when you stand up, your bops-a-lot dancing style whenever music comes on, and your intent curiosity about Sesame Street and Abby's Flying Fairy School.  I have loved watching you grow into this wonderous, expression-filled little person who isn't afraid of anything, is full of curiosity, and instantly fills my heart with happiness and love.

This first year was one I will never forget ... and I can't wait to see what happens in this next one. Happy Birthday to the best birthday present I've ever received.  I know July 12th will forever be our favorite mommy and me day.

xoxo my sweet angel. Mama loves you.

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"Your little hand's wrapped around my finger And it's so quiet in the world tonight Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret I'd give all I have, honey If you could stay like that

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little Oh darling, don't you ever grow up Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart And no one will desert you Just try to never grow up, never grow up"

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~Taylor Swift, excerpt from "Never Grow Up"