In just a few short weeks (or days at this point), I will be holding a new little miracle in my arms. If you follow me on Instagram, you have seen photos and details as we have prepared for our soon-to-be-here little guy, and now that we have everything as ready as it can be for him, all I can think about is what it will be like once he arrives. It is exciting, worrying, and exhilarating anticipating his arrival, and I am very curious as to when he will make his debut.
My days have been filled with planning wedding details and designing invitations, and every evening has been filled with thinking about how much life will be different after he comes. To say that my mind is constantly churning is an understatement - it is filled with thoughts, ideas, hopes, and dreams for what's to come. Especially after Heaven received an angel baby of ours in the fall of 2013, this pregnancy has been very different for me. But now, more than anything else, I keep coming back to what I want him to know. So below, I decided to write it all out. As a way for me to remember what life was like, these last few weeks before he was here. This little boy will complete our family, making us a family of five, and I want him to know just how very loved he already is. I can't wait to meet him.
To Our Son,
We can't believe that you are almost here. For the last few months, you have been steadily growing and making me very aware of your presence. The last couple of weeks in particular, you wake me up every night at 1:00 and 4:00 in the morning, because you are either practicing your ninja kicks or plan to be quite the dancer from all of the bouncing around you are doing. As much as I would love to be sleeping, because I know that that time is about to become extremely limited after you arrive, at the same time, I love it. I love feeling you kick, tumble, and turn about, sometimes with gentle patters, sometimes with massive force. I can't help but think about you all the time, and want you to know just how very loved you are.
We have prayed for you for so long. You are joining a family that is soexcited for your arrival. Your big brother asks about you constantly, your big sister gives you a hug and a kiss good morning and goodnight, with many little "hi baby brother" moments in between, where she waves at my belly and pats it continually throughout the day. When she talks closely to where you are, you instantly are awake and kicking. When she pats your current home, you instantly move. That only tells me that the two of you already have an incredible bond, and I hope that you grow up having an incredible friendship together.